Pride a cloud

by Calypso André

Icarus sends his last voice note 

to his father, Daedalus, 

on Whatsapp.

If you are falling it is not too late trust fall into these words the way I fall through these clouds because Father I am learning cloud is too distant a word for how clear the world is from up here don’t you know birds learn how to fly by falling Father father is too near a word for how my relief soars the farther I fall from you Father I never asked to know as much as you know the fragility of brass the use of volatile organic compounds the economy of ink I could only memorize the emerald fleck in your hazel eyes when you spoke about work this business of innovation was never for me you put a pen in my hand hoping I’d design mazes with you while all I could do was draw on its walls but hey my feet look more like my feet without the technology of wings to shadow their filth besides Father I don’t look clean enough to be up here here is for gods not the ungodly what can I say I only listened to the warmth on my cheek and that just so happened to lead me higher this forgery of flight reminds me of all the nights I fell asleep on your absence and the mornings I woke up extra early to tidy your office so it would be ready for your restlessness Father an island and a city face different tragedies and so does a father and his child Father I am not ending but becoming a pelican diving to fill its throat Father falling is just a preposition Father I could never know the meaning of exile like you do boogeymen in the sunlight in the streets in your home at night is that why you blinded your nights with obsession so your dreams could never drown you in their light Father if you fell I’d catch you Father only one of your inventions fails today Father I now know the only risk of falling is never falling again Father Father Father you were right the ocean is not blue but no colour at all


ABOUT THE CREATOR

 

Calypso André is a writer and organizer from Tiohtià:ke/Montreal. They hold an MFA from the University of Guelph. Their writing often deals with the hauntings we face after transitions. Her poetry has been recently published in ROOM and Riddle Fence.

Instagram: @soiamcalyso